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Happily Ever... by akaesha, literature

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Happily Ever...

I've avoided writing about you. It's not an accident or that I'm too busy or that I've forgotten. I just didn't want to. You are, quite simply, better than anything I could create. I realise now, after years of loving and fucking and wanting and having my heart broken. I realise that I was squeezing all I could out of each and every moment. Romance for the sake of having something to write about. With you I don't feel I need to squeeze anything out of any moment. We have more than moments. Every other relationship has seemed like good moments pressed between bad days. Every day with you is what I have always wanted. It's a million

Imagine Me and You by akaesha, literature

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Imagine Me and You

I see the way people look at each other in the movies. Forget a passing glance, a look is given and based on longing. Each kiss starts and ends with fireworks. I worry that I have had my share of those moments. I have had kisses that hit me in the stomach. I've had butterflies for days. I have done nothing but wrap myself in another person, staring, face to face, for hours. I figure there must be some kind of limit on those moments. Once you've had a dozen or so, that's it, the magic moves on. Kisses become no more or less intense than a hand shake. A business deal between two people that once meant so much more. And then I look at

Darkness was my friend. by akaesha, literature

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Darkness was my friend.

I never thought I would say this. But I miss you. Actually I long for you. It's funny, because when you were around I resented you. Tried to get rid of you so many times. But now you have finally gone, I want you back. People just don't understand. Without you, I am hollow. I'm empty. I'm just like everyone else. The same fucking 9-5 thoughts. No inspiration. No butterflies. I don't remember how to daydream. Music is just music and words no longer make a mark. In fact I think I even forgot how to put a sentence together myself. A collection of seven or eight or night words seems impossible without you. The things I used to re

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Happily Ever... by akaesha, literature

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Happily Ever...

Darkness Falls by akaesha, literature

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Darkness Falls

She stands on the edge And looks down Looks for you But it\'s too dark to see Should she risk it and jump anyway? The fall wouldn\'t kill her But it could do some damage Rebreak old wounds She remembers the last time she jumped She was braver then Had less to lose Yet it nearly broke her To fall Alone Engulfed by the darkness The void swallowed her Encaptured her Until finally spitting her out So dazed and confused That she could barely remember her name Let alone why she jumped in the first place She shivers She stands on the edge And looks for you But it\'s too dark to see.

Maybe One Day by akaesha, literature

BPD by akaesha, literature

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BPD

She stands alone in her darkness And hard as I try I cannot seem to reach her There is wall of glass between us That I feel Has always been there So I watch her Liked a sad, silent movie Adding lines from the depths of my own memory Dying a little more each time I try to reach her I can see her pain But I cannot hold it in my hands And she forever remains As tangilble As a long forgotten dream Sweet... and distant..

Inpsiration by akaesha, literature

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Inpsiration

All that's left of yesterday Beyond the sunset Is a warmth, right where your body used to lie All that's left of yesterday Is an ongoing darkness And a never ending empty All that's left of yesterday Is a moment or two An incredible sense of belonging A connection which I can't seem to shake. All that's left of yesterday Is your shadow Your smell And all those words left unsaid...

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Current Residence: Vancouver, Canada
Favourite genre of music: Indie/Alt/Folk/Emo.
Favourite photographer: Kea-Etc, Emptinesswithin, Kyza
Operating System: Windows Vista (can kiss my ass)
MP3 player of choice: ipod
Wallpaper of choice: Anything with snow on it
Favourite cartoon character: Astro
Personal Quote: "What we risk reveals what we value" Jeanette Winterson

Favourite Movies

Brokeback Mountain, Walk the Line, In Her Shoes, Shawshank Redemption

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Tegan and Sara, Ani Difranco, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Sarah Blasko, Emiliana Torrini, Ben Lee,

Favourite Writers

Jodie Picoult, Jeanette Winterson

Favourite Games

Mario Bros III

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Music, travel, writing and movies

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akaesha

Sep 1, 2022

You said my absence was palpable

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But now that I’m back.. you’re gone.

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akaesha

Jan 1, 2010

2009

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Wow what an insane year!!  I usually do a little wrap up in one of my other journals.  I'll do it here instead this time. Soundtrack of 09 1. My Favourite Book- Stars 2. Zero- Yeah Yeah Yeahs 3. Halo- Beyonce (sorry but it's true) 4. Tonight's Gonna Be A Good Night- Black Eye Peas 5. Closer- Kings of Leon 6. Hell-Tegan and Sara 7. Lucky- Jason Mraz 8. Already Gone- Kelly Clarkson 9. Present/Infant- Ani Difranco 10. Give Chase- Tegan and Sara 11. Does He Love You?- Rilo Kiley I know it's a lot of pop.. but I am pretty much forced to listen to top 40 all day at work.  I can't help it! The moments that made the year: 1.  Wit

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akaesha

Dec 17, 2008

The 2008 List

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The Soundtrack 1.  Alright Pilate 2.  2am Anna Nalick 3.  Wait Another Day-Uh Huh Her 4.  Bad News-Rilo Kiley 5.  Nicest Thing-Kate Nash 6.  Your Ex Lover is Dead-Stars 7.  Hot N Cold- Katy Perry 8.  Girl- City and Colour 9.  Gravity-Sara Barreilles 10. Grow Up and Blow Away-Metric 11. The Pussy Song. 12. Heal Over- KT Tunstall 13. The Con-Tegan and Sara 14. The Ice is Getting Thin- Death Cab for Cutie 15. The One Thing I know- Kate Miller Heidke 16. Wicked Game- Chris Isaak The moments that made the year: 1. Holding my niece for the first time.  Crying on her.  I have never been so in love so quickly.  Watching my sister de